My biggest fear is starting too become myself..
These thoughts of self hatred are eating me alive..
I’m so fucked up what is wrong with me?
Why am I like this?
Why can’t I be normal?
Why does this shadow of pain follow me around and come out of it’s shape at night? Leave me alone depression leave me the fuck alone
i’m screaming for someone..anyone… to make the pain stop…….. but no one is listening..because nobody cares
I’ve lost myself so long ago..
I’ve pretended everything wasn’t there
I’m dead inside
please let me go
I can’t live like this anymore
you all think i’m better
but you have no idea…and you won’t until I’m gone
I will never be okay..until I’m dead.
Please give me the courage to cut again so I can remember what it’s like to escape this just for a moment please.
I’m sorry I’m not good enough, I’m sorry I will never be good enough.